19th of April

it's been days i stop writing in my blog..no mood to write last week day..haiz..today my niece treat my parents and i at the garden taiwan fong lye eat..then went for walk..i don't use to it to walk alone..i used to holding my ex walk together..miss the moment very much..now don't use to it to walk alone in the shopping..i also been long time didn't go to shopping..so maybe i should find someone go with me or just don't go at all.. =.=" then tomorrow i will be attending my prize ceremony..it been postponed few times and tomorrow will be the day..i will receiving my grand prize trip to watch A1 race in UK..erm..i should be feeling happy and lucky to have won the prize but alot of things have make feel otherwise..feel kinda bad..hope i can enjoy during the trip to UK..then tomorrow will be going alone..no1 to accompany go for the prize ceremony..haiz..feel lonely and nothing to celebrate off..but still need to attend..

13th of April

today marks as 2months i have broken up with my gf..im still not able to live on normally since then..im still trying to forget something and not to think bout it..but sometimes it just will go around my head..i still miss her alot..im not sure that i should just leave her with her own happy life or continue to contact her..as i contact her she hardly will reply me that make me keep waits for days..during that period i don't feel good at all..it seem everything have changed as it is said to be..im so dissapointed..i should not hoping anything anymore..the more i'm hoping for the more dissapointing i will be..the day continue counting................................................

8th of April

should i say that today is my lucky day..i got a call from jobstreet.com staff telling me that i am the winner of the jobstreet A1 race competition..i have won the 1st prize which i get an all full expenses paid to UK to watch the A1 race but exclude for food..i so excited bout it..i need to make a passport..the staff need my passport no. so that they able to book the air ticket for me..i told my boss bout what is happening and get leave from him..he agree and let me go to enjoy..I'm so glad my boss is so kind..but he reminded me to becarefull because there are many cases where many people are scam to have a free trip and then found out their luggage have drug in it..so i need to be extra carefull and double super confirm bout winning the prize..i will be going to have a prize ceremony on coming monday..maybe i will appear in newspaper too..so check it out ya..hehe.. ;)

7th of April

2nd day of working..almost slept overtime today because feel so tired after yesterday 1st day of working..i should say today is an average for me..go to work and learn something new..hope 1 day can could master all those application in my job..then today i suppose to have 2nd interview with the law firm after my end my work today..but i have called the firm and said i will not going for the interview because i just only start my job 2days ago and i don't feel good to quit if i really get an offer by the law firm.. i feel sorry if i quit just working for few days only..what a shit if this happen and this deteriorate my reputation as i do this..so i decided just stick with what i got now and learn as much as i can..but i hate the traffic jam during going and back from work..wasting my time to rest..feel tired after working..need to sleep early everyday now on..haiz..cant enjoy like last time anymore.. ;)

6th of April

today is my 1st day of working..finally i have started my day of working life..i don't need stay at home anymore..though if i don't start work today I'm also been working as P1 wimax salesperson..but i would prefer to work as a junior company secretary because this is what i mean to be as i was study in business management cum ICSA to become a company secretary..i want to be a professional though is it not as professional as a doctor or lawyer..hehe..but at least i will get a professional certification from ICSA after sitting for exam..in my 1st day of working, i feel the stressed on what my senior trying to teach me..i found it hard at the beginning of it..but as i tried to do it myself and my senior correct me on the error i did..things went better since then..i have learn something today such as how to prepare for annual report and minutes..i also have learn how to photocopy, faxing and prepare for courrier servises..haha..so there are much more for me to learn in the future..i just wish to get the bless for me to stay strong to overcome any stress and obligation i will in coming future.. ;)

4th of April

complicated..I'm stuck between which firm i should choose as i can get a better deal for the job i wish to get..law firm or management firm..but i have accepted the offer to work in CP management on Monday..today i went for an interview by the law firm..it seem to be a better place to work..but then i still need go for 2nd interview by the law firm by then i already working in CP management..if the law firm really wish to hire me then i don't know i should resign from CP management as i just only started to work..it seem not too good..haiz..im stuck..

3rd of April

today can say is another good day for me..i got another unexpected call from a law firm for interview tomorrow morning at 10am..i was surprise to received that call..but don't will it a better deal for me than CP management co. yesterday interviewed..so everything will be know by tomorrow morning..if it is not a good deal then i will just continue with what is offered by CP management co. to start working on monday..i can't wait to start my 1st day of working life as a junior company secretary..hope everything will change in my life.. :)

2nd of April

it is a sunny day though in real life it is a rainy day..weird..haha..it is sunny day for me because finally i got my job that i have been searching since i finished my study..finally, today i got an unexpected call from CP management co. for an interview..i thought the co. won't be calling me anymore as i had applied for the junior company secretary post bout 2weeks plus ago..it is kinda long time to get a response for an interview..so i went for the interview at 2pm..i was interview by the boss Mr cheah..I'm was kinda embarrassed during the QnA because i was asked on what i had learn on law meeting and company law..i have forgotten some of it..but it is still OK in the end as Mr cheah have selected me for the position..i was surprise and happy..today really is my day..so as I'm working as sales person for P1 wimax currently..i cant stop immediately but i will work till this Sunday..then i will be start working as junior company secretary for the coming Monday..today is my day.. ;)

1st of April

april fool day..it seem to be a better day for me since then..some1 has confess to me bout something..i don't feel happy but i feel glad bout the matter..but some1 is making me fun of it..today i were awake by a call from MAICSA..a lady called and need my trancript for my diploma and advance diploma..then i rush to MAICSA office at Midvalley..but then i still need the confirmation letter from my college to settle the issue..so i will be goin back to my college tomorrow morning then again to MAICSA office..then my working day is bad..i got an egg home for my breakfast..haha..i don't get any1 to sign up with me today..so sad..haiz..nevermind there is better day tomorrow waiting for me..

31 of March

31 of march..not really a good day..it was a disappointed start of the day again..i saw something that make very sad..i saw the pictures of someone i love so much with another guy..my tear starting to drop non stop..i hardly to control myself..i don't know what i should really do..but she seem to be very happy and enjoying her life without me..but in the opposite I'm not happy and not enjoying my life..i don't have the chance to go out with her anymore and she is step by step erasing me from her heart and filling someone new into her heart..i feel so sad..I'm kinda stuck with myself at this moment..i have been trying to so many ways to let it go but it still don't work at this stage..what i really can do now is try to get myself as busy as possible so that i won't think so much..hope that for the month of april will give some fresh start to push myself again..

30 of March 2009

today is 6weeks since i had broken with my girlfriend..today wasn't a good day for me..i hope i could able to get some encouragement to kick start my day but it's a dissapointment to myself..i hope for something that it won't be likely to be happen..i feel kinda sad for that..but i still need to work anyway..then today is my 1st day start working as P1 WIMAX sales person at Taipan USJ 10 from 5pm to 12am..it's a bad start for me..i feel so boring and no mood to work at all at the starting..feel so shit and feel hardly to survive..it's just i'm alone in the world..but then luckily after my dinner thing change bit as there is 1 customer signing up with me and another 1 before i end my work..what i hope for to start my day happily ended as bad day for me..

my 1st experience writing a blog

this is my 1st time in my life writing blog..i created my account yesterday but i don't have the time to write..today I'm so free and spent my time writing this..it's been awhile that i have broke up with my girlfriend..it's soon to be exactly 6weeks tomorrow..all these day is my hardest time to pass without her company because i had spent most of my time together while we were together as a couple..now I'm single and i not use to it to b alone..i found it hard to pass my time..i everyday still hoping that one day i can able to be back with her..i still not able to let her go though i get my advise from all my friends..i still very love her..i miss her everyday..though I'm telling myself not to disturb her by messaging her everyday, i hardly do it because i will think of her when I'm free..as the time I'm just finish my study and started looking for my 1st job..i need to find my 1st job at this economic condition..i have been at home looking for my 1st job since 2months ago..with the feeling of breaking up make my day just worst during all these time..i feel the stress although my mum or dad didn't say me anything..but they still support me to find job slowly..but i feel useless as always stay at home eat and sleep only..but luckily, yesterday i got selected for the job as the sales person for the latest wireless broadband P1 WIMAX..this job is temporary for me as it can give me income while I'm still looking for the job i wanted to work as company secretary..as i got this job i got something to do to pass my time rather than sitting at home everyday thinking of those sad things..so tomorrow will be a new day for me as i will start working tomorrow at a roadshow at Taipan..i hope i can start my new life happily again..